Mama, Tell Me A Story

 My name is Madeline... a name I am very proud of because my mom picked it out special. She was watching the mini-series called North & South (she loves Patrick Swayze); in the show one of the main heroines is named Madeline, who is a strong, independent, compassionate woman, my mom fell in love with the name and decided that when she had a daughter that is the name she would pick.  I am a born and raised Coloradoan. I was born on the 15th of September, 1992. It was a Tuesday morning when my mom woke up feeling some pain in her abdomen knowing that her due date was very soon. My mom is normally not the cool, calm, and collected type, but when she went into labor it was my dad (the actual calm and collected one) who flipped out a little bit. It was like that scene in the film starring Kevin Bacon She's Having a Baby  when he gets everything loaded into the car and drives to the hospital only to realize that he took off without his wife in the car. My dad did something ...

  Mama, Tell Me a Story... I was going into 2023 three months pregnant with some of the biggest fears that I have ever felt before. I was terrified of having another miscarriage, or something going wrong with my pregnancy, or something horrible happening to my baby. My husband and God help me by giving me something to have faith in. I was three months pregnant, I was already further along than when I miscarried. We have seen the baby move in my belly via ultrasound and we have heard the strong heartbeat. This child will be the blessing that my life needs.  January 11th,2023 Life changes so fast. It can change in the blink of an eye. My life changed with I met my husband online in an anonymous chat app; he was a friend to talk to when I needed one the most. He was my ray of sunshine in a very dark time in my life when I was afraid I was going to be alone forever.  It is now five years later and almost two years of marriage and our lives were changing again with the additio...

  Mama, Tell Me A Story... It was June 12th, 2021! The greatest, happiest day of my life; the day that I married my best friend. I am a firm believer in that friendship and mutual respect and trust must go hand in hand when two people get married. My, then fiancee, now husband maybe me a playlist of love songs to listen to while I was getting ready the morning of our wedding. And he succeeded in his task of making everyone in the room tear up with every new song that played, but he also succeeded in making me fall in love with him all over again.  The most important song to my husband and I would be the song that we had our first dance to at our wedding reception: Fall  by Clay Walker. It symbolizes our relationship in more ways than one because he lets me fall apart knowing that he will always be there at the bottom to catch me.  September 14th,2022 I was approaching my 30th birthday and feeling anxious about turning 30. I was feeling like I was falling behind in th...

Mama, Tell Me A Story.... What does it mean to be a good wife? Well, first, the word wife  means a married woman who is supportive and romantic, but that is only the beginning of the road to being a good wife.  On my wedding day, June 12th, 2021, I had so many people offering me advice on how to be a good wife, but all the best qualities that make a good wife are universal. I am also finding that marriage requires both partners be committed to make it a healthy relationship. I like to think of myself as a semi-modern woman who doesn't fit the stereotypical image of a good woman.  A good wife expresses her love to her husband. She show him how much he means to her. She doesn't just make elaborate expressions of her love every day, but also the little gestures such as a kiss or a peck on the cheek. She says I Love You  every moment that it is true.  A wife communicates with her husband. A husband cannot read minds, just as the wife can't. Open communication in a m...

Mama, Tell Me a Story:  What makes a story empowering to someone else? I think it is when the writer shares their vulnerabilities with their audience; they share their truth.  My truth is that I had a miscarriage six months before I got pregnant again with my daughter. It was early on in my pregnancy, but it doesn't hurt any less. I was so excited to be a mother, then I went in for the first ultrasound appointment with my husband; the technician told me that the fetus had no heartbeat and there was no new measurable growth. I went through every emotion imaginable. I was confused, shocked, sad, angry, frustrated, and anxious. I was terrified that what happened was my fault, but mostly I was frustrated that I would never know the cause of my miscarriage.  This type of grief occurred in stages for me. The first one was shock and denial. The technician told my husband and I about the miscarriage and I was numbed. I was waiting to wake up from the dream, hoping that this wasn'...

Mama, Tell Me A Story....   Friday, August, 19th, 2022     I got pregnant again after my miscarriage and I felt different. I was more nauseous and tired then the first time. I was taking my prenatal vitamins, drinking a lot of water, and limiting my caffeine intake. I would try to eat the leftovers I had in the fridge, but they just made me sick. I was also craving some weird food combos, I.e. hot fries and peanut butter.                     "One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through and it will be someone else's survival guide."  -Brene Brown I have added so many titles to my name in the past few years:      wife  daughter-in-law sister-in-law aunt Hopefully, I can add Mom to my new titles. But I am not gonna get my hopes up and be devastated if it doesn't happen. I am gonna be over the moon if I am pregnant, but for now I am gonna wait a week, then I wil...